a glimpse into a parent's heart.

when on mc im pretty bored.

i found this..by a guy called tom fisher.

lately i've been thinking of how much i wanto adopt. actually not so lately. ever since last christmas when i signed up with shaohannah's hope. (i can't remember the website). it warms my heart knowing my little contribution helped a little child find a nice warm christian home. i used to wanto build orphanages. now i'd rather help build homes and hopes for orphans. for the record, there are more than 50 million orphans worldwide right now.

i think and smile when i see the happy pictures they post. and then i cry about the parents they leave behind. yes, i know most of them were abandoned in the first place but i started thinking of parents who birthed them out of unfortunate circumstances and wedlock and chose to give them up for abortion for reasons no one else will every understand. inspite of the pain and difficulty.

then i cry and cry. as usual. i'm thoroughly convinced while you normal pple are 70% made of water, i'm 120 %.

anyway here goes..

I dream of you

today i'm sitting at the spot
i call our secret place
with eyes closed tight i dream of you
the tears stream down my face

i left you here a year ago
it was to my despair
the emptiness within me
is more than i can bear

where are you today my darling?
where are you today my dear?
a part of me is missing
i wish you still were here

are you perhaps in china?
maybe right down the street
sometimes i walk right by that place
hoping our eyes will meet

i left you here my daughter
i left you in this place
each time i close my eyes at night
my dreams fill with your face

i will always love you
i will always care
even though i left you here
my dreams are yours to share

please forgive me little one
there was no other choice
when you close your eyes at night
your heartbeat is my voice.