im confused myself
today i cried and laughed. and to make things worse, when i cried, sometimes it because i'm simply touched. den for awhile it was tears of joy, den after that it was mixed with a tinge of sadness and pain.
today someone close to zac's heart and mine whose life we really thought had really just begun broke some painful news to us. his own mortality is left hanging on the line by the enemy who is trying to convince him that its really the end. we were quite angry and prayed. i cant believe he wanted to go thru this alone and just not tell anyone. praise God he did coz now hez gg to go all the way till age 120 if Jesus tarries.
missed a dear sister and friend very much. someone whom i just forged a friendship with less than a year ago but has touched my heart so dearly i granted her permanent residency in my heart. shez 12 hours away i nsome other remote part of this big world and the distance i don't know why seemed to really affect me today. missed her somuch i cried and cried. thank God for email. i don't even have a photo. just the indelible images etched in my heart.
more painful news of friends along the way. alot of those whom i really love are hurting and i can't wait for them to be healed.
other than all that, its been solidly wonderful. this part i absolutely cannot describe. all God. all Jesus. all divine. all wonderful
Sunday, January 30, 2005
Saturday, January 29, 2005
some of the things i heard last night.
"controversy to testimony"
"wah..newest creation"
"brand new season in your life"
"if you let go and not build your own fortress, you'll see Him rise up and be your complete defense"
"its the zi cha(food) la" when i complained that i felt my stomach churn.
among many other things. like songs of praise, the guitar and melodic prayers in tongues.
so much goodness.so much love. once again, thank you Jesus.
"let them ever shout for joy, because You defend them" psalm 5:11
"wah..newest creation"
"brand new season in your life"
"if you let go and not build your own fortress, you'll see Him rise up and be your complete defense"
"its the zi cha(food) la" when i complained that i felt my stomach churn.
among many other things. like songs of praise, the guitar and melodic prayers in tongues.
so much goodness.so much love. once again, thank you Jesus.
"let them ever shout for joy, because You defend them" psalm 5:11
Friday, January 28, 2005
only hope
after feeling like i've been dangled from a cliff, i'm extremely grateful for the peace and calmness although i still shudder to think about the harrowing almost-ruined-it experience.
nothing much changes. i mess up. He cleans up. patches up.
so graced. phew
but what enthralls me the mostest is how i felt His presence so strongly at the onset of every 'catastrophe' whether xinying-made or otherwise. how He rushes in to just let me know when my soul cannot detect anything at all in the spiritual realm and my mind is oblivious to the truths that don't fade nor die. the physical presence of the Lord..it does wonders. He rushes in to be there for me when i don't even have it in me to utter a prayer.
had a good time overall with jon coming down to humble nus to visit us. was more than happy even though fatigue was fast sapping up my strength. and of coz, although i've been absolutely intentionally negligent with the ongoings of many lives that used to be integral to my own, i found out alot in such a short catch up session..
whatever the case, it always leads me to put my own life back under the microscope. but sometimes i put it under the wrong microscope and end up magnifying the tiniest lack. its horrible but i'm promptly reminded that i'm blessed beyond the curse and thats all i need to know. zac's ex classmate who had a wonderful promising future (apparently) who seemed to had it all had his life abruptly terminated by what seems to be asthma although he was fit as a fiddle. and couldnt possibly have had asthma. well, not trying to ride on his terrible misfortune to make myself feel blessed. i don't need that. but it breaks my heart and it really drives the truth that i'm truly truly blessed and i truly truly can afford to let go of everything and not worry abt anything simply because of the cross and how it avails even 2005 years later. its effects will last thru all eternity.
and today at 1 am the revelation of eternity struck me. that it really never ends and really does go on forrrrrrrrever. ok go ahead and rolll your eyes. Jesus has more grace for my overwhelming limitations in all aspects. hmph!
and esp for the past few days, everything that i so desired in the past few days and hence have stashed to the back of my mind keeps popping up in my spirit, and in sermons on cds, people etc etc. He is trying to drive home the message that its goin to happen better that what i could possibly dream of. that my dreams need not be aborted. that its not just a fantasy.
Jesus darzen just grant dreams , He grants fantasies. even when they're way out of my world. like how i can't even sniff them because i'm simply not in the right league.
oh God, why me? but i really appreciate His choice of blessing targets. i don't think i can ever answer this why me question but i'll just accept it nonetheless. so thankful so thankful. so much has arrived in this past few weeks from heaven and so much more is in store. its the best year i lived ever and its only jan.
i wish i could say more. but for now, "thank you" is all i can muster.
There for me the Savior stands
Shows His wounds and spreads His hands
Face to face before the Son
And like Isaiah, I’m undone
nothing much changes. i mess up. He cleans up. patches up.
so graced. phew
but what enthralls me the mostest is how i felt His presence so strongly at the onset of every 'catastrophe' whether xinying-made or otherwise. how He rushes in to just let me know when my soul cannot detect anything at all in the spiritual realm and my mind is oblivious to the truths that don't fade nor die. the physical presence of the Lord..it does wonders. He rushes in to be there for me when i don't even have it in me to utter a prayer.
had a good time overall with jon coming down to humble nus to visit us. was more than happy even though fatigue was fast sapping up my strength. and of coz, although i've been absolutely intentionally negligent with the ongoings of many lives that used to be integral to my own, i found out alot in such a short catch up session..
whatever the case, it always leads me to put my own life back under the microscope. but sometimes i put it under the wrong microscope and end up magnifying the tiniest lack. its horrible but i'm promptly reminded that i'm blessed beyond the curse and thats all i need to know. zac's ex classmate who had a wonderful promising future (apparently) who seemed to had it all had his life abruptly terminated by what seems to be asthma although he was fit as a fiddle. and couldnt possibly have had asthma. well, not trying to ride on his terrible misfortune to make myself feel blessed. i don't need that. but it breaks my heart and it really drives the truth that i'm truly truly blessed and i truly truly can afford to let go of everything and not worry abt anything simply because of the cross and how it avails even 2005 years later. its effects will last thru all eternity.
and today at 1 am the revelation of eternity struck me. that it really never ends and really does go on forrrrrrrrever. ok go ahead and rolll your eyes. Jesus has more grace for my overwhelming limitations in all aspects. hmph!
and esp for the past few days, everything that i so desired in the past few days and hence have stashed to the back of my mind keeps popping up in my spirit, and in sermons on cds, people etc etc. He is trying to drive home the message that its goin to happen better that what i could possibly dream of. that my dreams need not be aborted. that its not just a fantasy.
Jesus darzen just grant dreams , He grants fantasies. even when they're way out of my world. like how i can't even sniff them because i'm simply not in the right league.
oh God, why me? but i really appreciate His choice of blessing targets. i don't think i can ever answer this why me question but i'll just accept it nonetheless. so thankful so thankful. so much has arrived in this past few weeks from heaven and so much more is in store. its the best year i lived ever and its only jan.
i wish i could say more. but for now, "thank you" is all i can muster.
There for me the Savior stands
Shows His wounds and spreads His hands
Face to face before the Son
And like Isaiah, I’m undone
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
one of the emptiest days
i went around town with Jesus to look for a nice pair of slip-ons but i ended up with a pair of shoes instead. like them alot and got them for a very good price. thank you lord. and i met stella ng on the way. just a side mention. but i still need nice slip ons. that i can afford. yes.
den got a lift back from my dad who came to pick my mum up. and she started asking me if i have started sending out my resumes. to her horror, i told her i am not even sure if i know what a resume looks like. the rest of you can join her in the horror club. its ok. i'm used to people staring back at me in horror forwhatever reason. it darzen affect me all that much anymore. the same way i am horrified why God loves me. or sees beauty in you.haha.yah. nevertheless, praise Jesus.
so my kancheong mother proceeded to tell me that i should probably contact her cousin who works in some recruitment company who specializes in head hunting the best for specific jobs. she said i really need to pull strings. for the life of me, i can't even holdon to any thread much less have to strength to PULL any string. so once again, she was horrified. its ok. she said i need to rely on pple i know to get introductions for positions, Fortunately, the only one i know who can provide the job that i can handle and will pay me decently is Jesus. and when i said that, a deathly silence reigned in the car.
its really ok. i have sub zero faith in myself too. so i dun blame her. sometimes i have sub zero faith in what God can do for me too. but its ok. i am still never disappointed despite worrying quite endlessly. actually more than pleasantly surprised should be a more appropriate description.
so i went on my way, continuing to pretend to be a zombie to avoid having to answer anymore job related questions. den i heard my mum screech. and realised that she drowned my discman in her bag. i was surprisingly calm. not because i know that discmans are dirt cheap these days even since ipod and the creative zen thingy arrived on our shores. well, even so, i cannot afford them no matter how cheap they are. and forget ipod, or the zen thingy, cheap or not, i wun be able to use it. technophobic. i would gladly carry a mini-compo out if i could. if my mum is too giam to get me one, then Jesus will pay me back and restore it to me. yes...i want discman not some savvy pod or zen thing. afterall, its her daughter that drowned my discman. so naturally, i complain to her father lah.
so finally im in my room, savouring the silence and peace.
den i checked my email. and darling nus sent a mail to ask me to filefor graduation.
fantastic.
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Hez been addressing one of my age-old concerns of late. at least once everyday in many ways. sometimes spectacular, sometimes just plain humorous but always Jesus-style.
its really sweet.
den got a lift back from my dad who came to pick my mum up. and she started asking me if i have started sending out my resumes. to her horror, i told her i am not even sure if i know what a resume looks like. the rest of you can join her in the horror club. its ok. i'm used to people staring back at me in horror forwhatever reason. it darzen affect me all that much anymore. the same way i am horrified why God loves me. or sees beauty in you.haha.yah. nevertheless, praise Jesus.
so my kancheong mother proceeded to tell me that i should probably contact her cousin who works in some recruitment company who specializes in head hunting the best for specific jobs. she said i really need to pull strings. for the life of me, i can't even holdon to any thread much less have to strength to PULL any string. so once again, she was horrified. its ok. she said i need to rely on pple i know to get introductions for positions, Fortunately, the only one i know who can provide the job that i can handle and will pay me decently is Jesus. and when i said that, a deathly silence reigned in the car.
its really ok. i have sub zero faith in myself too. so i dun blame her. sometimes i have sub zero faith in what God can do for me too. but its ok. i am still never disappointed despite worrying quite endlessly. actually more than pleasantly surprised should be a more appropriate description.
so i went on my way, continuing to pretend to be a zombie to avoid having to answer anymore job related questions. den i heard my mum screech. and realised that she drowned my discman in her bag. i was surprisingly calm. not because i know that discmans are dirt cheap these days even since ipod and the creative zen thingy arrived on our shores. well, even so, i cannot afford them no matter how cheap they are. and forget ipod, or the zen thingy, cheap or not, i wun be able to use it. technophobic. i would gladly carry a mini-compo out if i could. if my mum is too giam to get me one, then Jesus will pay me back and restore it to me. yes...i want discman not some savvy pod or zen thing. afterall, its her daughter that drowned my discman. so naturally, i complain to her father lah.
so finally im in my room, savouring the silence and peace.
den i checked my email. and darling nus sent a mail to ask me to filefor graduation.
fantastic.
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Hez been addressing one of my age-old concerns of late. at least once everyday in many ways. sometimes spectacular, sometimes just plain humorous but always Jesus-style.
its really sweet.
Friday, January 21, 2005
the round table affair
i hate to confess this but i will...
its a struggle for me not to indulge in self-pity..when things are not going my way.
so to counter that...i will nail my brother to the cross to remind myself that through Jesus' sufferings, i've been made righteous and thus is very blessed!
i'm kidding. i love him fat as he is.
i'm the queen of wishful thinking.
had a horrible horrible family dinner with the side of the family that i honestly honestly do not like to spend a minute with today to celebrate my grandpa's birthday. and i am so positively sure no one even knew how old he really is and we dun even care. my mum paid for the entire feast and no one even said thank you. its ok. nothing new. and i was fired with the same routine questions.."where are u studying?what are u studying?oh goin to graduate already har...so what do u plan to do?"
and to that..my answers are..."nus.history.yes.dunno"
i din even bother to make conversation or give awkward smiles. i turn into a stone. a robot. i dun even bother to gingerly sip chrysanthemun tea this time and pretend to sms. i just folded my arms and looked straight back trying to restrain myself from screaming and pointing out the fact that its so horrendously incredulous that they have been asking at least the first two questions ever since i was in kindergarten. no make that nursery.
my brother( poor thing) on the other hand din even get that. my uncle who has like sub zero discretion exclaimed upon seeing him.."WAH...are u in taf club yet?put on so much weight ar?"
grr. my poor bro was quite hurt i could see. and awkward. and he din have the guts to shoot them daggers or soemthing along those lines...or hope out loud that they swallow a fish bone.
my brother is FAT AND CUTE. and saved. so Jesus just happens to be living inside a slightly roomier temple. thats all! can shrink anytime we want. grr
albeit being a brat irritant and all...therez a good side of him that manifests every nwo an then! i dun even wanto rat on my cousins whom i havent had a single verbal exchange with for the past 21 years of my life.
do not love them. do not do not!dread chinese new year.
its a struggle for me not to indulge in self-pity..when things are not going my way.
so to counter that...i will nail my brother to the cross to remind myself that through Jesus' sufferings, i've been made righteous and thus is very blessed!
i'm kidding. i love him fat as he is.
i'm the queen of wishful thinking.
had a horrible horrible family dinner with the side of the family that i honestly honestly do not like to spend a minute with today to celebrate my grandpa's birthday. and i am so positively sure no one even knew how old he really is and we dun even care. my mum paid for the entire feast and no one even said thank you. its ok. nothing new. and i was fired with the same routine questions.."where are u studying?what are u studying?oh goin to graduate already har...so what do u plan to do?"
and to that..my answers are..."nus.history.yes.dunno"
i din even bother to make conversation or give awkward smiles. i turn into a stone. a robot. i dun even bother to gingerly sip chrysanthemun tea this time and pretend to sms. i just folded my arms and looked straight back trying to restrain myself from screaming and pointing out the fact that its so horrendously incredulous that they have been asking at least the first two questions ever since i was in kindergarten. no make that nursery.
my brother( poor thing) on the other hand din even get that. my uncle who has like sub zero discretion exclaimed upon seeing him.."WAH...are u in taf club yet?put on so much weight ar?"
grr. my poor bro was quite hurt i could see. and awkward. and he din have the guts to shoot them daggers or soemthing along those lines...or hope out loud that they swallow a fish bone.
my brother is FAT AND CUTE. and saved. so Jesus just happens to be living inside a slightly roomier temple. thats all! can shrink anytime we want. grr
albeit being a brat irritant and all...therez a good side of him that manifests every nwo an then! i dun even wanto rat on my cousins whom i havent had a single verbal exchange with for the past 21 years of my life.
do not love them. do not do not!dread chinese new year.
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
perhaps a farewell is due
not happy. not everything is going my way. no surprise but its hard to sit still and let go and let God.
but i am determined to do just that. even if im tempted to go ballistic, panic, scream (but prob is i dun even know who to scream at)etc etc.
the allergy that i am having now does not belong to this body no more. temple of God. shoo shoo. dun allow you in my territory. SHOO.GRRR.
am seriously thinking of shutting the blog down because i simply don't have what it takes to keep it going. esp now that sch has started and the journey is more or less the same. with the more or less same tests and more orless same miracles and same victories. not slighting these things but there are too many things that words arent apt enough for. there are too many revelations, heartfelt waves of gratitude that words simply don't suffice. i don't emote well. esp not on a keyboard. so if this darzen serve the very purpose, den why .....
i wonder. i want this blog to serve its purpose well. a place whereby ican document my journey and look back in awe at the wonderful hand of God on this simpleton. but its been increasingly hard for me to say anything. because of the words that i might wanto take back but can't. and just because the fact that its hard to hold my tongue does NOT mean that i have to type it with my fingers. because it involves other people and i don't wanto hurt anyone's feelings just because i'm angry for THAT moment.
blogger, i think you are here because sometimes i don't want a human voice to evaluate everything for me. yet i need to let it out of my pent up system. its not always a good thing too. i keep recounting the unhappy as i type entries. double edged sword though because i also recapture the cloud 9 feeling when i read/type the wonderful mercies and grace of God documented.
BUT ..its not good enough reason to be diarying. this can't be a diary when i'm so restricted. byebye blogspot. maybe maybe
but i am determined to do just that. even if im tempted to go ballistic, panic, scream (but prob is i dun even know who to scream at)etc etc.
the allergy that i am having now does not belong to this body no more. temple of God. shoo shoo. dun allow you in my territory. SHOO.GRRR.
am seriously thinking of shutting the blog down because i simply don't have what it takes to keep it going. esp now that sch has started and the journey is more or less the same. with the more or less same tests and more orless same miracles and same victories. not slighting these things but there are too many things that words arent apt enough for. there are too many revelations, heartfelt waves of gratitude that words simply don't suffice. i don't emote well. esp not on a keyboard. so if this darzen serve the very purpose, den why .....
i wonder. i want this blog to serve its purpose well. a place whereby ican document my journey and look back in awe at the wonderful hand of God on this simpleton. but its been increasingly hard for me to say anything. because of the words that i might wanto take back but can't. and just because the fact that its hard to hold my tongue does NOT mean that i have to type it with my fingers. because it involves other people and i don't wanto hurt anyone's feelings just because i'm angry for THAT moment.
blogger, i think you are here because sometimes i don't want a human voice to evaluate everything for me. yet i need to let it out of my pent up system. its not always a good thing too. i keep recounting the unhappy as i type entries. double edged sword though because i also recapture the cloud 9 feeling when i read/type the wonderful mercies and grace of God documented.
BUT ..its not good enough reason to be diarying. this can't be a diary when i'm so restricted. byebye blogspot. maybe maybe
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
i don't like to...
this is something pretty trivial actually and its not going to affect me anymore..after this post. nobodys prob goin to understand what i'm blabbing abt because i'm goin to be ultra cryptic but i don't care.
i hate being put in a box and made to feel like i have no choice coz i know i have perfect freedom in every area. well..its a finished work izznt it?
i understand what its like to be fearful and full of cares. but no one needs to project it out to every living thing around and make everyone live like you.
face it. no one's perfect. its not heaven here. we all need Jesus and His grace. i might not need it the same way as you do but i DO. and very much. just because no one understand does NOT mean its not real. it exists nonetheless.
it takes so much grace but praise the Lord its available to cope with so many weaknesses, infirmities etc. thank God for a bf who really supports, encourages, prays unceasingly and is not always accessible. even via the phone. well, he is super patient and long suffering. fruits of the spirit that you need to survive with gf like this.
i do not have no choice. therefore, the fact that i'm living with certain irritating inconveniences, i am going to make a concious CHOICE not to let it affect me negatively. although i always border at seriously blowing my top. all things work out for my good. i thank God anyway.
patience girl. so much patience. grace. its so tempting to feel despair..not utter but enough to think that certain situations and conditions will be persisiting for the rest of your life but well, as plausible as it sounds, and looks, for now i'll leave my hope with Jesus and hope does not disappoint.
i hate being put in a box and made to feel like i have no choice coz i know i have perfect freedom in every area. well..its a finished work izznt it?
i understand what its like to be fearful and full of cares. but no one needs to project it out to every living thing around and make everyone live like you.
face it. no one's perfect. its not heaven here. we all need Jesus and His grace. i might not need it the same way as you do but i DO. and very much. just because no one understand does NOT mean its not real. it exists nonetheless.
it takes so much grace but praise the Lord its available to cope with so many weaknesses, infirmities etc. thank God for a bf who really supports, encourages, prays unceasingly and is not always accessible. even via the phone. well, he is super patient and long suffering. fruits of the spirit that you need to survive with gf like this.
i do not have no choice. therefore, the fact that i'm living with certain irritating inconveniences, i am going to make a concious CHOICE not to let it affect me negatively. although i always border at seriously blowing my top. all things work out for my good. i thank God anyway.
patience girl. so much patience. grace. its so tempting to feel despair..not utter but enough to think that certain situations and conditions will be persisiting for the rest of your life but well, as plausible as it sounds, and looks, for now i'll leave my hope with Jesus and hope does not disappoint.
happy fish
i am very angry with ch 8!!they conned me into thinking that jiaqi (from the happy fish show)died TWICE. actually thrice. but the first time was very long ago.and i bawled quite endlessly. although i'm really glad he didnt.
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
i cant title this.
yes i can rejoice even when i'm undeserving (which actually is all of the time- a truth that i don't realise enough) because then Jesus is my only qualification.
yes i can rejoice even in my many weaknesses because Jesus accomplished His greatest accomplishment in the moment of His greatest weakness. because He took my place. (my precious zac just told me this moments ago)
its been fantastic. it takes a revelation to realise i'm still on earth. a very troubled and devastated earth for that matter.heaven is bursting out of my heart. its a pity none of u can catch it over the internet.
on a side note, there has been fleeting moments of sorrow and even regret. but nothing that the Lord didn't address. now i can truly thank the Lord even for the mistakes brought about because of my wilfulness because of this recent revelation. yes, a few entries back i asked for that one revelation to set me free and well, He gave me a few. that is my Jesus for you. whose other name is el shaddai. He is always more than enough.
"all flesh is grass,
and all its loveliness is like the flower of the field
the grass withers, the flower fades
because the breath of the Lord blows upon it;
surely the people are grass
the grass withers, the flower fades
but the word of our God stands forever"
isaiah40.6-8
yes i can rejoice even in my many weaknesses because Jesus accomplished His greatest accomplishment in the moment of His greatest weakness. because He took my place. (my precious zac just told me this moments ago)
its been fantastic. it takes a revelation to realise i'm still on earth. a very troubled and devastated earth for that matter.heaven is bursting out of my heart. its a pity none of u can catch it over the internet.
on a side note, there has been fleeting moments of sorrow and even regret. but nothing that the Lord didn't address. now i can truly thank the Lord even for the mistakes brought about because of my wilfulness because of this recent revelation. yes, a few entries back i asked for that one revelation to set me free and well, He gave me a few. that is my Jesus for you. whose other name is el shaddai. He is always more than enough.
"all flesh is grass,
and all its loveliness is like the flower of the field
the grass withers, the flower fades
because the breath of the Lord blows upon it;
surely the people are grass
the grass withers, the flower fades
but the word of our God stands forever"
isaiah40.6-8
Monday, January 03, 2005
surrounded by songs of deliverance
i live near the sea too. and i thank God i turned down more than one offer to go to phuket.
was sleepless on sat night so early sunday morning i found myself trooping to the first service with Jesus with great joy and glee. did not fall asleep for a single second during the fantastic sermon. received so much. thank you Jesus.
even pastor mark's sermonette before the holy communion made me well up because it spoke so directly. i think its just amazing and i know its no coincidence.
was so good i met zac and went for 3rd service again. but i slept like a baby while the rest of the congregation was roaring with laughter. praise Jesus. i woke up at about 4 pm. yah. when pastor prince is on his FINAL close.
never before there was such peace and joy such mental stability even in the midst of chaos and grief. i think i'm geared up and ready for the exciting (and tumultuous for the poor ailing world) days ahead.
asia will recover. God has great plans for you.
"For the Lord your God is bringing you into a good land, a land of brooks of water, of foundtains and springs, that flow out of valleys and hills;
a land of wheat and barley, of vines and fig trees and pomegranates, a land of olive oil and honey;
a land in which you will eat bread without scarcity, in which you will lack nothing; a land whose stones are iron and out of whose hills you can dig copper.
when you have eaten and are full, thenyou shall bless the Lord your God for the good land which He has given you" deut 8:7-10
ok. amen.
was sleepless on sat night so early sunday morning i found myself trooping to the first service with Jesus with great joy and glee. did not fall asleep for a single second during the fantastic sermon. received so much. thank you Jesus.
even pastor mark's sermonette before the holy communion made me well up because it spoke so directly. i think its just amazing and i know its no coincidence.
was so good i met zac and went for 3rd service again. but i slept like a baby while the rest of the congregation was roaring with laughter. praise Jesus. i woke up at about 4 pm. yah. when pastor prince is on his FINAL close.
never before there was such peace and joy such mental stability even in the midst of chaos and grief. i think i'm geared up and ready for the exciting (and tumultuous for the poor ailing world) days ahead.
asia will recover. God has great plans for you.
"For the Lord your God is bringing you into a good land, a land of brooks of water, of foundtains and springs, that flow out of valleys and hills;
a land of wheat and barley, of vines and fig trees and pomegranates, a land of olive oil and honey;
a land in which you will eat bread without scarcity, in which you will lack nothing; a land whose stones are iron and out of whose hills you can dig copper.
when you have eaten and are full, thenyou shall bless the Lord your God for the good land which He has given you" deut 8:7-10
ok. amen.
on eagles wings
another psalms 91 find. which i accidentally dloaded a few weeks back.not knowing how relevant it really was.and was gg to be.sorry josh groban.i'm sure ur album will sell well
You who dwell in the shelter of the Lord,
Who abide in His shadow for life,
Say to the Lord, "My Refuge,My Rock in Whom I trust"
And He will raise you up on eagle's wings,
Bear you on the breath of dawn,
Make you to shine like the sun,
And hold you in the palm of His Hand.
The snare of the fowler will never capture you,
And famine will bring you no fear;
Under His Wings your refuge,His faithfulness your shield.
And He will raise you up on eagle's wings,
Bear you on the breath of dawn,
Make you to shine like the sun,
And hold you in the palm of His Hand.
You need not fear the terror of the night,
Nor the arrow that flies by day,
Though thousands fall about you,
Near you it shall not come.
And He will raise you up on eagle's wings,
Bear you on the breath of dawn,
Make you to shine like the sun,
And hold you in the palm of His Hand.
For to His angels He's given a command
To guard you in all of your ways,
Upon their hands they will bear you up,
Lest you dash your foot against a stone.
And He will raise you up on eagle's wings,
Bear you on the breath of dawn,
Make you to shine like the sun,
And hold you in the palm of His Hand.
And hold you in the palm of His Hand.
You who dwell in the shelter of the Lord,
Who abide in His shadow for life,
Say to the Lord, "My Refuge,My Rock in Whom I trust"
And He will raise you up on eagle's wings,
Bear you on the breath of dawn,
Make you to shine like the sun,
And hold you in the palm of His Hand.
The snare of the fowler will never capture you,
And famine will bring you no fear;
Under His Wings your refuge,His faithfulness your shield.
And He will raise you up on eagle's wings,
Bear you on the breath of dawn,
Make you to shine like the sun,
And hold you in the palm of His Hand.
You need not fear the terror of the night,
Nor the arrow that flies by day,
Though thousands fall about you,
Near you it shall not come.
And He will raise you up on eagle's wings,
Bear you on the breath of dawn,
Make you to shine like the sun,
And hold you in the palm of His Hand.
For to His angels He's given a command
To guard you in all of your ways,
Upon their hands they will bear you up,
Lest you dash your foot against a stone.
And He will raise you up on eagle's wings,
Bear you on the breath of dawn,
Make you to shine like the sun,
And hold you in the palm of His Hand.
And hold you in the palm of His Hand.
Saturday, January 01, 2005
i'm liking this and i'm not masochistic
2005 din start well for me. but it will end well and i will have the last laugh.
the enemy nearly had a fieldday laughing his crushed head off anticipating my impending breakdown and overwhelming sorrow but i'm sorry (actually i'm not) for the anti climax but it just didn't happen. tadah.
inspite of the upheaval that happened, and his vain and futile yet purposeful efforts to set the stage for the great impending events to shake my humble little world, i'm calm. surprisingly. i din expect to. but He did. He expected everything and calmed with the peace that no human mind can comprehend. i am baffled myself.
and it hit me that He went to the cross even for this. even for this. yes, the sorrow that surrounded Him then was truly mine. the sin, the anguish. excruciating no doubt but taken away. so today i have the RIght to rejoice and i'm goin to use it. its a by-product of the gift of righteousness and its too good to put it to waste.
events aren't working to my favor but i'm not supposed to live by them anyway. besides, they're only too prone to change. for now, i'm strangely not too concerned abt the needs to be met, the disadvantaged situation i am in etc. yes pressing needs but its not because it hazznt sunk in. it has already sunk in so far and scared the living daylights out of me. but His name is jehovah jireh and i happen to be His. thats the best thing i've heard all day, and it wazznt delivered by a human voice. Thank you.
so now i gladly declare that i can rejoice even in the midst of these circumstances which are simply not worthy of mention. yes, not even on a blog that no one really reads.=) Jesus made it all possible. its possible to smile even when u're small and lost and hungry and tired coz the bible says u're blessed.even when u're persecuted, poor and yes...the list goes on but God has only one category for pple suffering from the above afflictions- blessed. (pls read beatitudes)and it will manifest during my time on earth.
ooh i just realised.beatitudes. its a BE- attitude. be what?be blessed. just be. because i am.(private revelation. nvm if nobody else gets it. hahahaha)
songs of countless promises
like kisses from heaven they fall
how loved am i
songs that take me to higher heights
such favor i know is divine
how loved am i
No guilt in life no fear in death
this is the power of Christ in me
from life's first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell no scheme of man
can ever pluck me from His hand
till He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ i stand.
the enemy nearly had a fieldday laughing his crushed head off anticipating my impending breakdown and overwhelming sorrow but i'm sorry (actually i'm not) for the anti climax but it just didn't happen. tadah.
inspite of the upheaval that happened, and his vain and futile yet purposeful efforts to set the stage for the great impending events to shake my humble little world, i'm calm. surprisingly. i din expect to. but He did. He expected everything and calmed with the peace that no human mind can comprehend. i am baffled myself.
and it hit me that He went to the cross even for this. even for this. yes, the sorrow that surrounded Him then was truly mine. the sin, the anguish. excruciating no doubt but taken away. so today i have the RIght to rejoice and i'm goin to use it. its a by-product of the gift of righteousness and its too good to put it to waste.
events aren't working to my favor but i'm not supposed to live by them anyway. besides, they're only too prone to change. for now, i'm strangely not too concerned abt the needs to be met, the disadvantaged situation i am in etc. yes pressing needs but its not because it hazznt sunk in. it has already sunk in so far and scared the living daylights out of me. but His name is jehovah jireh and i happen to be His. thats the best thing i've heard all day, and it wazznt delivered by a human voice. Thank you.
so now i gladly declare that i can rejoice even in the midst of these circumstances which are simply not worthy of mention. yes, not even on a blog that no one really reads.=) Jesus made it all possible. its possible to smile even when u're small and lost and hungry and tired coz the bible says u're blessed.even when u're persecuted, poor and yes...the list goes on but God has only one category for pple suffering from the above afflictions- blessed. (pls read beatitudes)and it will manifest during my time on earth.
ooh i just realised.beatitudes. its a BE- attitude. be what?be blessed. just be. because i am.(private revelation. nvm if nobody else gets it. hahahaha)
songs of countless promises
like kisses from heaven they fall
how loved am i
songs that take me to higher heights
such favor i know is divine
how loved am i
No guilt in life no fear in death
this is the power of Christ in me
from life's first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell no scheme of man
can ever pluck me from His hand
till He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ i stand.
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