i don't like blogging anymore, nor reading blogs. word racer is the name of the day.
the past two days have been awesome and this is probably one of my last blogs. before i close it down..bit by bit. or blog once every year.
was at zac's grandparents' place yesterday and God, they are like so lovable. a christian couple with 60 years of marriage. the hightlight of that session must be ah ma singing "beautiful sunday" and "thank you Jesus"...while ah kong (who is kinda tone deaf and deaf) just recited the lyrics. ah ma den tried to hush him so that she can continue her duet with her handsome grandson, isaac quek while i act as support..and come in occasionally and just clap along. i think that moment is divine and i see Jesus nodding. i think i personally prefer hanging out with the really old and really young. anything in between can be classified as dangerous, depressed, whiny and a pain. well..most of the time. if you are feeling offended, well, yes then, i am talking about you. but i still love you!(sometimes)
today was supposed to be an eating spree today and zac and i received a treat from faith and victor. honestly, they are such huge blessings with or without the treat. i really felt so blessed and joyful just being with them. with the food, everything was just totally perfect. and we topped off the day with BS, can anything get better than perfect? Jesus always tops my expectations. contrary to popular belief, i do get everything i want an di know i can. because i'm highly favoured according to the measure of Christ and He can do anything for me. yay!
really, its not just the activities. but the general sense of blessedness and joy that has been sinking into my spirit. some days seem to be pretty mundane and by my own standards, lousy...but its harder to even pay attention to the negative these days. some people in my life are perennial pains...and its not my job to neutralize or change them and although i'm often the subject of their personal anguish and frustration with every possible thing, its ok. its fun to ignoreand go on smiling whilie they continue fuming. i can't help it ok?sometimes the conciousness of Jesus and everything good is so strong these teeny weenee stuff just cant get me down. so for crying out loud, give up. i wish the conciousness of Him and His gdness and love was strong and high everyday but when it izznt, Hez there to remind me gently, to give me a peace that my mind does not comprehend, that my heart sometimes refuse to comply.
whatever...i'm not even going tow aste time looking at these situations and people, i'll let Jesus handle them while i focus on what He wants me to focus on. when i remotely look at these things, i feel like i'm wasting 2 seconds of my life. yes , not even a glance. not worth it.
i am the reason and i cannot deny it. the reason He came down from heaven, went to the cross, rose from the grave.
glee.
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