even when my life is severely disarrayed (thanks to work and nonsense) and i find myself caught in a mini but brewing storm , i see Him in the clouds. actually, He is standing above the clouds reminding me that Heaven is just on the other side.
i hate to admit this but i really don't know God. i dont know His heart. even after 10 years, i still find myself so often back at square one wondering His plan and His purpose and what in the world is He thinking when He sees me and what i am going through. i was never made to second guess Him or to beat Him to the right answer but to trust.
i guess thats it. that i just really have to believe that His love is not to be held hostage by the circumstances in my life. that He really does have my best interests at heart and i am a priority in His scheme of things.
its been difficult at work but i've been shown no less mercy and grace. even when human relations get a tad bit tacky and sticky and i just wanto flush myself down the toiletbowl to escape it all, i've somehow emerged higher and better. much to the chagrin of people who think i'm too young and blur and simple to manage anything. little do they realise that they are indeed right but the secret behind the magic is my Lord, quietly operating behind the scenes like a faithful servant without claim of immediate credit when He is actually the Lord of the universe.
as much as i'm humbled, telling these incensed souls that 'it's Jesus' will just hate Him even more. which is why i refrained. in this case. i don't know if its the right thing because i like to think of myself of jumping to give glory to God first (maybe a vain attempt to believe i, am capable of not shaming His name ALL THE TIME).
as it is right now, Jesus does not have a very good name in the workplace. i really want Him to shine. even if its not through me. because so many people need to know that if there's any light at all at the end of the tunnel, its Him. and tunnel life is so not fun. somehow, as much as i wanto broadcast Him in the workplace, i feel like i have to refrain and let my actions and practices demonstrate them instead.
it's easier said than done of coz. but if i've learnt anything at all, actions really do speak volumes more than words. gossip,practicing double standards,lying may be common practices of the world but a child of God is to have no share in these things. a high standard to live up to for most but if we see the purity that His righteousness entails and all that we've been vested with to be empowered to live THAT kinda life...is it not the least bit alluring to even want that for ourselves?
i hate to admit this but i really don't know God. i dont know His heart. even after 10 years, i still find myself so often back at square one wondering His plan and His purpose and what in the world is He thinking when He sees me and what i am going through. i was never made to second guess Him or to beat Him to the right answer but to trust.
i guess thats it. that i just really have to believe that His love is not to be held hostage by the circumstances in my life. that He really does have my best interests at heart and i am a priority in His scheme of things.
its been difficult at work but i've been shown no less mercy and grace. even when human relations get a tad bit tacky and sticky and i just wanto flush myself down the toiletbowl to escape it all, i've somehow emerged higher and better. much to the chagrin of people who think i'm too young and blur and simple to manage anything. little do they realise that they are indeed right but the secret behind the magic is my Lord, quietly operating behind the scenes like a faithful servant without claim of immediate credit when He is actually the Lord of the universe.
as much as i'm humbled, telling these incensed souls that 'it's Jesus' will just hate Him even more. which is why i refrained. in this case. i don't know if its the right thing because i like to think of myself of jumping to give glory to God first (maybe a vain attempt to believe i, am capable of not shaming His name ALL THE TIME).
as it is right now, Jesus does not have a very good name in the workplace. i really want Him to shine. even if its not through me. because so many people need to know that if there's any light at all at the end of the tunnel, its Him. and tunnel life is so not fun. somehow, as much as i wanto broadcast Him in the workplace, i feel like i have to refrain and let my actions and practices demonstrate them instead.
it's easier said than done of coz. but if i've learnt anything at all, actions really do speak volumes more than words. gossip,practicing double standards,lying may be common practices of the world but a child of God is to have no share in these things. a high standard to live up to for most but if we see the purity that His righteousness entails and all that we've been vested with to be empowered to live THAT kinda life...is it not the least bit alluring to even want that for ourselves?
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