ah..the perils of blogging
today i heard a true life account of one. of how a lecturer decided to google his own name and found a horrible post about him by one of his students.
and i really hate msn. i have just officially downloaded it for the 3rd time this week because it kept giving my computer grave errors. i don't even know when i'm giving it chance after chance. should have enough strength to let go by now. should have nv defected from the icq camp. should have....maybe used yahoo instead?i don't know. the 'should have' list is endless with msn alone. what more for my life...
there are many forthcoming testimonies. esp in the family realm.praise God.
but even so, i cant help still feeling kinda down which explains why i'm still up at this graveyard hour..blogging. the simple thing that my heart truly truly yearns for and has waited for that money cant buy has yet to arrive and i'm doubting whether i'll just have to forego it and count my other blessings since they're rather innumerable and...forget it altogether. it is one of those 'it is only possible with God' kinda things because man can't give it to me at all. i yearn and yearn and i wanto stop yearning if ic ould. but havent been too successful thus far...and thus my heart is abit sick.
hope deferred makes the heart sick
but when the desire comes, it is a tree of life.
prov 13-9
need my merry heart back. it hassnt been around for quite awhile.
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