oh finally.

It appears to take alot. to take the plunge, to take the step of faith boldly holding on to nothing familiar at all, abandoning human certainty and embracing the only certainty that truly is certain anyway. but here i am, (i think) with a boldness i never knew though i'mstill shaking inside. (at least everytime i engage my mind or listen to the lies) i am afraid once again.

but at least i'm going. at least i've taken step 1. and there's no looking back from this point forth. change and the abandonment of familiarity and human stability is also translated to a no choice situation but to trust Him. and trust involves a dynamic relationship. i can no longer worship methods that i'm familiar with, experience etc but go to Him each and every single day. relying on HIm tobe the way. to pave the way. and even in the event that i make mistakes, He'll still be there. and that is more than enough.

besides, since when was experience a criteria of truth?

another page is turned today. another chapter in my life. actually i think the Lord held up this page in my life for at least two months but i held on too that same page never allowing HIm to fully put it down and start a new chapter. today, i'm holding His hand instead of the page. i'm allowing Him to write the nxt chapter and let it unfold. i've heard Him loud and clear, ignored HIm blatantly, sought confirmation, got confirmation, debated, fought, wrestled. yes, skinny me vs almight God.

Thank God for His enduring love and patience and Isaac's too.

i'm a worshipper of the almighty God, the alpha and the omega, Jesus Christ, son of God. not my methods, not my own flesh, nothing of man, not familiarity, not apparent stability. and it'll stay this way forevermore. say amen with me.


Father i see that You are drawing
a line in the sand
and i want to be standing on Your side
holding Your hand
so let your kingdom come
let it live in me
this is my prayer
this is my plea.

-let the worshippers arise- philips craig and dean