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some people are born with silver spoons, gold spoons and diamond encrusted spoons stuck right down their throat.

i was born (again) however, with 2 cups instead. one empty, signifying that He drank all that sin up, and became sin for me. the other, full of His annointing, blessings etc. (the righteousness package)

learning (once again). humbled. wreckage yesterday is evaporating. today's a fresh new slate with fresh mercies and i am so thankful for them. if any person, be it God or man were to hold my transgressions and well..nonsensical behavior against me, i'm dead meat.

thank you so much love, for being such a fine example of Jesus' grace and mercy.

so relieved that im so blessed.i don't know why, maybe its past experiences or plain cynicism but i almost expect love and favor to be forfeited when i seriously seriously blow it. with people especially. i know well enough that God's love is not withdrawn.

therefore, i think the sweetest words that i ever heard and will hear are..."i still love you". be it on the 2000th anniversary or after grave mistakes and nasty exchanges of words, its the most soothing sound ever period. it spells grace, mercy and a love from heaven alone, and no where else. and i'm blessed because i've heard it from the two most important men in my life so many times over.

my life is a life marked and sustained by nothing short of His grace and mercy. i still don't know if i can still expect these things to flow freely from anyone i've done wrong against or whose toes i've stepped on over the course of the last 21 years...but its ok. atleast two men have said it to me and i'm blessed. not many people have had these joyous experience.

this alone makes me wanto run towards goliath, whatever form he may try to take, wants me to keep breathing, even though it may be very stifling. i just wanto keep on keeping on because of this alone.

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