bleah

this week hasn't been good. tomorrow i have to return to work coz we simply can't finish. and its national day. and i'm sleep deprived. and i'm still wondering how in the world things are going to work out. my emotions didn't even have time to do their usual roller coaster sequence when things are going topsy turvy. have been rather calm (comparatively) but not so strong. many times i want to crawl into a hole and cry in despair but i don't have time.

so there.

i called 999 for the first time. and 3 times in a day for that matter.
for the record, they took 20 minutes to arrive and i had to depend on my very brave friend ms pang to apprehend the creep.
i screamed at someone in public.
i screamed at the police officer for being stupid.
i realized who i could count on and depend on and was very sad to find you not on the list.
i saw that the people who were there were the ones who never failed to for like the past ten years.
i realize that people really don't understand me.
i realize how desperate i am in need of a miracle.
i wish i have 40 hours in a day and i am actually superwoman so i can do everything by myself and not get affected by people
i never wished for money so much and this is merely because i want to cab like every single time and never take the bus again. and i used to enjoy double decker rides.and i suddenly really wanto access email on the go. and i never ever wish these things!
i have developed an appetite for eggs and bittergourd and brown rice big time. (thanks shuxin)
i signed up for facebook (ok actually cali did it for me so i'm profileless)
i just want to hide on an island named heaven and play masak masak and watch f.r.i.e.n.d.s
i have semi evolved into a misanthrope.
i suddenly wanto start sailing again (for the uninformed, i am a certified sailor. i can actually go out to sea alone) but i don't know when no one allows me to drive alone. always loved the sea but always hated the sun.