Wednesday, August 06, 2008

enroute clementi-aljunied, aljunied-clementi

The violin
An instrument of melancholy
Producing tunes so heavy
They drown me

Im drunk in its lullabies
Unable to rouse from slumber
Resonating with my soul's cries
The violin continues
To wail pain that otherwise cant be expressed

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Why is it

that after so many battles fought

between your fierce will and the meekness of your soul

It still hurts

And the exchanges are still so curt

Why is it

that after so many years

There’s still a gaping wound

Overflowing with unfound fears

Why is it

That it turned out the way it did

The end was so tragic

When the start was most romantic

Why is it

that after so much

You won’t let go

Of your emotional crutch

And you don’t move on

After he’s long gone

Are you not tired?

of this repeatitive rhapsody

It’s unfeeling cruelty and sordid mess

there’s nothing there for a princess

the harsh lash of words

run like a broken record

The cutting words haunt you down

Like a drawn sword

It’ll never return

the past will never disarm itself.

it has sworn enmity against you

to steal your future

the hurt can’t be undone

but the healing can begin

There are answers

Too many of them

To each 'why' you asked

Job asked why 181 times

God didn’t answer him once

He just made his end sweeter

And restored double

Let’s stop figuring why

And settle for ‘it’s not meant to be’

there's no treasure in the past
so lets be curious about the future
and see where blessings lay hidden
just turn your back on them all
and surf the waves again

never mind 'if the sun should refuse to rise'
or 'the moon doesn't hang in the night'
the tides WILL change
seasons do rearrange
98 degrees has come and gone
come on
move on.

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