life without me!

so mei ling left tonight.
i'm so happy for her and i believe she'll have fun in melb with ah belle.

i don't know. it's not like we manage to meet so often in sg but i just hate it that she is two hours away and is not readily accessible to me. i'm THAT selfish.

what if i need a food kaki? what if i just need to feel silly and need company at that? who am i going to poke fun at now?

melbourne is stealing alot of my friends. despite being one of my favoritest places on earth, i have a love hate relationship with it because it stole so many pple i love.

its something about the not so sombre atmosphere (it's not as crazy as the west and not as fast as the east), the crazy erratic weather, the streets that i manage to somehow navigate, the sunsets and the good times i've had there with the same friends that trooped over that gave melby a special place in my heart.

it has been my place of temporary refuge everytime i'm down. in the past, it was so convenient to just book a ticket and end up at the doorsteps of a friend's place. now, its near impossible. because tickets no longer cost less than 1k. and time is scarce.

i feel like doing that now. but i can't.

australia is not home but somehow i want to go there like all the time. perhaps after this paris trip, this opinion will change.

which i'm looking forward to. if not for the fact that cologne follows after that and my schedule for colognenow is filled with..plenty of meet ups i wonder if i have time venture out to buy a pair of birks.thank God i already know my size.

**
at the lift lobby, as the lift door opens, this guy stepped out and upon seeing me said
"hi, i just left''

i was astounded. i mean huh why who is he. a thousand thoughts raced throughmy mind. is he a neighbour?did ilose my memory??is he somebody important that i forgot again?is he my relative who came to visit?

i just stood there literally with my mouth gaping for awhile. until he said 'you don't recognize me?!"

and all i could do was nod like an idiot.

apparently he is my brother's tutor who has been at my house every week for the past year. and he has said hi to me a thousand times before. and i never knew ....

this adds to the list of people who go 'hi xinying!" and i go ''ahhhhh..hi'