Sunday, September 28, 2014

30 going on 31 weeks

Lying on a tennis ball to soothe achy muscles.

So fat I nearly burst my husbands' boxers. (I wear his clothes at home) 

Baby who has been kicking so much since 5 am this morning-sleep deprived mum. 


Thursday, September 25, 2014

What is baby doing?

Massage lady asked me that.  

"reading a book?"

All she wanted to know if if he was kicking at that moment but I was too in pain to think. 

Oops. 

Saturday, September 20, 2014

Home stretch

I could hardly walk yesterday. I think I suddenly exploded and found it hard to catch my breath. Legs hurt too.

Today I tried to time how long I took to et to the supermarket. It usually took 5 minutes but today, I took 20. 

It's getting really hard to get comfortable and this is my latest pillow formation. 



The inhabitant inside me, aka my son is also making more violent movements inside me. We can even see him moving and squirming right under my skin. That's really fun except for the rib punches which leave me breathless. Occasionally, I can identify either an elbow or fist. 

Home stretch now. Hope I get to enjoy the last part of my pregnancy. It's been hard and I've made so many social appointments for the last week and I hope I can waddle along well! 


Thursday, September 11, 2014

Nobody really knows


I don't know how to put it into words too. 

I don't know how to ever tell anyone how hard this pregnancy has been and how I really don't have the courage to do it all over again. It is an incredibly lonely journey. I feel it won't be right for my first born and second because I'm not strong enough for it. Been to the edge so many times and back and suffice to say, I'm traumatized. 

I've really expanded all my resources just to get through everyday and I thank God for each day and try not to dwell on the difficult parts but it hardly gets easier. 

Baby N, I love you so much and I still feel inadequate to be your mum. I am weak and every day, I won't have the strength to get through if not for God who supplies grace and the will to soldier on for you. 

I hope I get better at this because you deserve the best. 

Monday, September 08, 2014

Oops is when

When you fart and your husband thought it was the sound of a drill..😨