today God responded. I was a dry land that didn't even know how to cry out for rain anymore, preferring instead to give up. But a faithful labourer of God obeyed His instructions to preach pray and most importantly love and i feel a new lease of life again.
the hurts and cracks that were so deep , together with the cares of this useless world fled in that single moment when i felt the touch. did i mention i love altar ministry? and to think moments before that, I , afraid of the scrutiny of men and knowing that my defenses will come melting down like the walls of jericho refused to go up to be prayed for.
i melted away again at the alter and theres nothing quite to describe that moment, less i dilute and distill the richness of it due to my lack of better words.
its so good to belong.
Sunday, February 25, 2007
Saturday, February 24, 2007
shampoo ole ole!
most people think i must be really low maintenance since while most girls lust after gucci, LV, prada, choos,chanel (hello ms pang!) and what nots, i lust after...shampoo and food which are comparatively cheap.
however, i do have a weakness for two particular brands and they are the less popular (in singapore) dior and loewe.
recently, i've been toying with the idea of shelling out my own money to make that huge leap of faith to make that big purchase...with the aid of my CNY takings and at the prospect of going hungry for an indefinite period of time.
however, wisdom (and commonsense) arrested me in time and i started to balk at that idea. since i wazznt able to eat the bag if i'm hungry, and it will make me very hungry, i shdnt. really. esp when i dun have much weight to lose. conversely, God has said that when u fast, keep up with looking neat and tidy so that you dont look like you're fasting or u'll lose the reward..so i guess that justifies my shampoo collection.
and i decided that if i'm going to give dior and loewe more money than i give my God, then its not exactly testimony that He has given me in abundance coz im stinging at His expense. since i havent arrived in that day whereby what i give dior is just a tiny fraction of what i give God which is a tiny fraction of what God has entrusted me with, i shall hold my horses and not raid the stores with my humble plastic card that can lend me potentially in financial and mental distress. maybe when that day arrives when God has enlarged not just my bank account but my tiny heart, i won't even care abt loewe or dior anymore. like forsaken lovers, they'll just join the rest of the garbage and filth of the world while i embark on seeking out my greater treasures in heaven.
in the meantime, cheers! to shampoo.
disclaimer/afterthought: if u're hardcore brand luster, i do not condemn you.
however, i do have a weakness for two particular brands and they are the less popular (in singapore) dior and loewe.
recently, i've been toying with the idea of shelling out my own money to make that huge leap of faith to make that big purchase...with the aid of my CNY takings and at the prospect of going hungry for an indefinite period of time.
however, wisdom (and commonsense) arrested me in time and i started to balk at that idea. since i wazznt able to eat the bag if i'm hungry, and it will make me very hungry, i shdnt. really. esp when i dun have much weight to lose. conversely, God has said that when u fast, keep up with looking neat and tidy so that you dont look like you're fasting or u'll lose the reward..so i guess that justifies my shampoo collection.
and i decided that if i'm going to give dior and loewe more money than i give my God, then its not exactly testimony that He has given me in abundance coz im stinging at His expense. since i havent arrived in that day whereby what i give dior is just a tiny fraction of what i give God which is a tiny fraction of what God has entrusted me with, i shall hold my horses and not raid the stores with my humble plastic card that can lend me potentially in financial and mental distress. maybe when that day arrives when God has enlarged not just my bank account but my tiny heart, i won't even care abt loewe or dior anymore. like forsaken lovers, they'll just join the rest of the garbage and filth of the world while i embark on seeking out my greater treasures in heaven.
in the meantime, cheers! to shampoo.
disclaimer/afterthought: if u're hardcore brand luster, i do not condemn you.
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
CNY 2007
top down: cny day 1:going green, reunion dinner-joy and i, cny day 1: josh and i, neoprintnot my favourite holiday of the year. i feel worn out exhausted and that i laboured and slaved. thankful for the extra hours of sleep. incoherent. and did i mention exhausted?
best highlight was the stolen moments in the midst of what i call mayhem that isaac and i took out to be together and of coz, his first reunion dinner with the Ling family.
i wish we had more time together though. i'm slightly angsty and upset that i don't have control over my own time. slightly harassed by thoughts and dreams that don't belong to me (i dreamt i was a detective again and tonight is csi night). slightly lonely and morose...because i'm surrounded by people I REALLY DON'T like.
bloopers this year:
my mum upon seeing my cousin this year(in voice loud enough for whole block to hear): WAH, so fat now ar.
my ah ma upon seeing my another cousin this year: (in hokkien and loud enough for the whole clan to hear) WAH, jin pui ah!(wah so fat!)
followed by...
(translation) why never exercise!!!???
talk abt tactlessness.
i need a touch of God. i need. so thirsty.
Thursday, February 15, 2007
come back ah belle.
annabelle left today. shuxin leaves in 4 days. melbourne has stolen so many of my friends and returned only some of them.
can't help but feel a sense of loss.
it was nice having an mg reunion dinner at the airport. but the context was wrong. i can't help but feel left behind.
come back soon dear.
ade and i are waiting. and your augi!
**
-in the car with augi sending us home, driving past nus-
joni:wah i quite like this compound
me: what kampung?
-at the airport after sakae sushi meal-
me: so are you teaching?
joni: itching?no
me: so what do you do at SIA?
joni: system enhancement
me: assisting your husband?!?!
can't help but feel a sense of loss.
it was nice having an mg reunion dinner at the airport. but the context was wrong. i can't help but feel left behind.
come back soon dear.
ade and i are waiting. and your augi!
**
-in the car with augi sending us home, driving past nus-
joni:wah i quite like this compound
me: what kampung?
-at the airport after sakae sushi meal-
me: so are you teaching?
joni: itching?no
me: so what do you do at SIA?
joni: system enhancement
me: assisting your husband?!?!
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